Gobsmacked

This weekend, I had lunch with 4 amazing women, 3 adorable babies & 1 sweet husband (not mine).

A little before I got pregnant, I joined a message board centered around pregnancy and babies. I was hoping to learn what I didn't know (everything) and to have a place to confess my insecurities (a lot). The women I lunched with are a few from the board that have befriended me over the past 3 years and they now know me better than most.

What I didn't realize when I found these women was that I had also discovered serendipity.

As quoted by Lawrence Block; "Serendipity. Look for something, find something else, and realize that what you have found is more suited to your needs than what you were looking for."

These women are my Serendipity.

Long story short, I got knocked up, looked for people to tell me what the hell I was supposed to be doing, then suffered a miscarriage and lost my mom in the same week, and totally fell apart. After, I didn't want to leave my house or talk to anyone I knew in real life. I could not talk to anyone in real life. I didn't want my real life and I didn't want to be me. At the same time, I was painfully lonely and had no one to understand me.

Walk in The Women of Serendipity.

They allowed me to speak my truth, consoled me, held my hand, dried my tears and taught me to smile again. So, when I met some of these women for the first time, I was star struck. Gobsmacked. I found myself sitting around a big lunch table and just staring at them, wondering if they even understood what kind of an impact they have had on my life. They saved a part of me that I was afraid I was never going to get back.

Normally, I am a boisterous, loud mouthed, talking nonstop kinda gal. However, I found myself struggling to get sentences together and sweating through my shirt. In what felt like 30 seconds, it was all over and I felt tears welling up in my eyes. As I hugged each of them good bye, one spilled down and I hustled to grab a cab.

It was a true moment of "words can't express how thankful I am..."

So, to these women, the above is some of what I wanted to say. I could write a book about what you all have done for me, but at this point I will be shocked if half of my readers get this far.

Anyway, to put it simple.... Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

And to my readers: You never know the impact you are having on someone. I doubt highly these women know the size of the pedestal I have them on and how I thank God for them daily. Their kindness to me is something I now strive to give back daily.